20
Sep

Wed in Black by Adelle Chua — http://adellechua.blogspot.com/

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Wed in black

Jennie’s wedding pictures are now up on friendster. I was chatting with her this afternoon (early morning where she is)and she said she went back to work today after taking a leave of…2 days. I asked her whether she cried, in the exact same moment she told me she didn’t. Hehehe. Great minds do think alike, mare.

She also asked for my comments on the photos. I have only a few:
1. Indeed she has gained weight. But who said beauty came only in small sizes?
2. I had known she would be wearing a black dress. I did not know that it would be sleeveless and low-cut. The cleavage was phenomenal.
3. She looked happy.
4. Thomas looked happier. He was beaming. Obviously, he adored her.

My friend, “Jenny with an ‘ie,’” has now become Mrs. Hamilton. Congratulations to the both of you. Enjoy the bliss of romance and the satisfaction of lasting love even more.

13
Sep

The BtchGdss retires

In 12 hours and 20 minutes, I will be embarking on one of
the greatest adventures of my life. A lot of people never thought that this
would ever happen. I never thought this would happen to me. I was resigned to
the fact that I was the forever single cool friend.

Funny how if I changed any one thing in my past, I would
never arrive at this.

In spite of all the pain, frustration, heartaches, tears,
etc etc and so forth – it was all worth
it.

He found me.

12
Sep

I shaved my Legs

I shaved my legs.

For the past 30 years, I have left them untouched; as I felt there was never any need for them to be. They have always been smooth and shapely. Modesty aside, there have been people who actually asked if I did anything to my legs (i.e. shave) because they appear to be very pleasant. Come to think of it, these people might have been trying to tell me something – like I might need to have them shaved?

But I digress.

Why only now have I decided to shave my legs?

The decision, I would say, subconsciously began forming last August 16, 2008.

That was a Saturday, a real pleasant one by Canadian standards. My significant other made reservations at one of our favorite restaurants. It was his way of making up for not fetching me from work the night before. It was a pretty nice restaurant. Great prime rib.

It was pricey there. Even made a comment about it when he told me we were having dinner there. But he wanted to go, so we were going. First time he took me there was for my birthday the previous year. It was our first real date. Then we went there again for Christmas, which was his mom’s birthday. We were supposed to go there again for my birthday this year, but we didn’t.

It was a nice enough place that we had an excuse to spiff ourselves up. I even put on make-up and ditched my flip flops for heels. He actually had dress pants and his nice shoes on.

We’ve been together for around a year then and going out on dates was something that you took for granted especially once you start living together. So this was a nice treat for us.

We enjoyed a nice relaxed conversation on the drive going there. He even sang his current favorite song when it came on the radio.

And then things started to change when we were seated at our reserved table. He started bringing up a topic that I preferred to discuss in private. It was touchy matter and I tend to become emotional whenever we talked about it. It was about me going back home. And home was on the other side of the planet.

I kept changing the subject but he kept returning to it. Until I got to the point that I voiced out that I didn’t want to talk about it, that I was going to the washroom and when I returned, I didn’t want to hear about it.

I composed myself while I was in the washroom, determined to make this a nice evening out and not mar it with an emotional outburst. I wanted to enjoy my prime rib.

When I got back to the table, my ass barely touched my chair when he brought up the topic again. Btu this time, something caught my eyes. In his left hand, held by his fingers, something sparkled.

He remembers the whole thing better than I do, mostly because my heart pounded so loudly.

Will you marry me?

And all I could do was nod my head. And hold back my tears.

Today is September 12, 2008. In thirty-six and a half hours, I am getting married. That’s why I shaved my legs.

02
Mar

February 14, 2008

Hello my love, thought I’d try my hand at writing a
note. Damned if I know what to say. Bet it turns into an incoherent mess. I will
start off by saying I love you. I won’t go into stuff about your eyes or the
like. After all, I can barely say stuff
like that aloud without making a mess of it. So let’s just leave it at that,
yes? I want you to know that you are the best thing that has happened to me in
a long while.

So that’s why I have decided to give you the keys to my
heart… well, more like the keys to my place. That was bad, yes? That would be
why I stay away from flowery stuff like that, I couldn’t pull it off with a
truck. Anyways, I’m looking forward to this year with you and can’t wait to see
what it holds for us; good, and and ugly, I will be by your side, my love.

Yours, …

P.S. The keys are yours to do with as you wish. It’s not a
ploy to get you to move in. I just wanted you to have them, so that you know
that you have a place or dare I say a home here.

02
Dec

What the…?

His name is Thomas and yes he’s my significant other…..enough said for now.

15
Jul

let the games begin

An answer finally thrown my way….probably not the answer….however a point that gave way to some clarification. You need a break…ok I will give you a break. Let’s just hope that the break is not long enough for me to be snagged by somebody else.

You’ll always have that special place there. However, and I’ve said this several times before, I am really not very good with the waiting game especially if I’m dangling myself in front of you.

Mind you, there are other fishes in the sea. And these fishies are more than willing to take my bait. But I’ve been placing the bait just quite out of their reach. Seems to me that I just might let them take a bite. Twiddling thumbs wasn’t something I was very good at.

So I will just go around and play the field for now…whether you find out or not….at this point I dunno whether you’ll care or not.

This is a risk I’m willing to take. And I’m hoping you’ll come to your senses before the risk becomes to great.

05
Jul

my first about me

You would think that describing yourself would be one of the easiest things to do…but faced with the question…you end up groping for words and answering it so generally that whatever you say wouldn’t even be remotely close to the real you.
Hmmmm….. so here I am…thinking of the right words to convey the real me…. so here goes…. (deep breath)….
I’m a no nonsense kind of individual. I call it as it is. I could be very straightforward but there would be times when I would just prefer to keep my thoughts to myself. I’m not a conservative but I wouldn’t exactly call myself a rebel. I’ve enough spunk to not conform but still value tradition.
I’m quite assertive and could be a borderline workaholic at times.
When I do have some free time, I like watching movies or just hanging out and catching up with friends over coffee and smokes — that is when I’m not sleeping.
A good friend I think said it best when she described me as someone you’ll either love or hate. It’s quite rare that there’s a gray area in my perspective.
I value honesty, respect and thirst for knowledge.
So what do you think? Was that description too "gift wrapped?" Oh well….

24
Apr

coming out

I’m coming out….i want the world to know….

OK…first things first   I AM NOT GAY! yes i did get a buzzed cut, but i have not switched teams. I just wanted that out of the way.

I say coming out because I finally got to tell my mom that I had this haircut. It took me a week before I got to tell her.

Now a lot of my friends are probably going to ask this next one — WHY? Well, below are my reasons….

- I’ve never done it before.

- Stressed. Needed to vent out on something.

- Wanted to do something "crazy" before I turned x (x=to current age) + 1. It was either this or a tattoo. I can grow back my hair.

- Budget. I don’t need as much shampoo and conditioner.

- Insanity. Just plain insanity and a little bit of boredom.

14
Apr

stress

i thrive on stress. i’ve discovered that a couple of years ago. i am not at my full potential unless i am under duress. kinda masochistic eh? however, i cannot fully say that i enjoy being stressed. there are times that i wish i had the flux capacitor so that i can manipulate time and find out how things turned out. it’s really amazing how a decision between turning left and turning right can make a difference on how things would turn out. and the fucked up thing about the whole thing is that you can never know how it would have turned out if took the other way. never know it ever. mind blowing isn’t it?

at this point, i am just hoping for the best and that i have the guts to accept whatever and however things turn out.

29
Mar

quandary

my whole being is currently in debate. logic and gut are waging war inside me. logic says it has no reason, but gut says go ahead.

logic - there is reason, there is rhythm, there is rhyme, 1+1 = 2

guts - it’s guts! 1+1 is not 2! it is everything BUT 2.

however, logic gave me one of the most disappointing moments in my life. guts has given me the greatest adventure.

what the fuck. lemme just flip a coin.